Dame Kaz

It’s not a comfortable subject for writers – published or otherwise – because to not be able to write, for whatever reason, is so full of negative emotions as to feel agonising. Which sounds totally dramatic, but sometimes the worst case of ‘block’ really is that painful to those who suffer. Guilt, shame, self-hatred… all the biggies are there, and I’m sure a whole lot more. *shudders*

(On a very important side note here, no matter what your beliefs/theories are surrounding ‘Writer’s Block,’ there will always be someone who disagrees. Which is fine! Life is all about people having different views and different experiences. It would be pretty boring if it was any other way. However, it is the World’s Most Annoying and Hurtful Thing(tm) to make yourself vulnerable and to tell someone that you feel ‘blocked’ on your latest project, only to have that person breezily tell you, “There’s no such thing as writer’s block! I never get blocked. I don’t have time for it!” This is insensitive, and sometimes even damaging.)

I can only talk about my own experience and my own belief’s around the phenomenon known as ‘Writer’s Block’. If you, personally, believe in the power of something external to you that stops you from being able to write each and every time you face the blank page (or a stalled project), I am not saying any of the following to disrespect or devalue your own experience or definition of the much-used term. But for me, we aren’t talking about something mystical or outside of ourselves. My feelings around this complex subject – and my recent struggles with a form of ‘it’ – have led me to fully embrace the notion that writer’s block should always be written with a small ‘w’ and a small ‘b’. When we give those two little words Capital Letters of Doom, it seems more scary than it really should be. And certainly more significant.

So, in Kaz’s ever humble opinion (no laughing at the back, there!), what is writer’s block?

Basically, it’s something that comes from within you that stops you from writing. The part about it coming from inside you personally is crucial. If we turn it into something alien and external, then it’s far too easy to think: “Oh well, that means it’s out of my hands. There is nothing I can possibly do and will therefore have to simply watch reruns of The Vampire Diaries until my writing returns to me!” Which is not true – the part about not being able to do anything about it, I mean. Also, writing doesn’t ‘go’ anywhere. Not the way I see it, anyway. It’s still there, right inside you – you just have to dig around a bit in order to find it again.

What you can do, even if you can’t write, is try to figure out why you think you can’t write. Because, believe me, even when you truly believe you can’t do the work, you actually can. You can pick up a pen and write words. Any old words will do. They might not be very good words (they probably won’t be, to begin with), but there isn’t a mysterious power freezing you in place and physically stopping you from writing something down (a sentence! Just one little sentence…). Or typing a line. Writing the words: “Chapter One.” If you really were blocked, this should be impossible… right? Especially if you’re capital-B-Blocked.

If only writing was always this pink...

But, still. You feel as though you can’t write. I’ve been there. (Oh, how I’ve been there… very recently.) So first try to figure out why you can’t write:

Are you bored with your project?

Uninspired?

Worried that you’re repeating what’s already been done a million times before?

Did you go wrong somewhere, in an earlier chapter, and now you’ve ground to a halt?

Do you have to feed the kids and help with homework before you can write, and then when you finally get half an hour to yourself… you feel half-dead and hopeless?

Are you just too tired?

Too distracted?

Too lazy?

Too hungry?

All of these things – and many, many more – could be, and probably are, at the root of your stuckness. Steven Pressfield, in his famous book The War of Art spends most of its pages talking about Resistance (note the capital-R). And, you know, he’s not wrong. Most of our blocks and stuck places around our creative work do stem from us simply resisting the work. But it’s in the knowing WHY that I think is important. Because, once we know that, we might be able to fix it – maybe even fix it easily.

Sometimes, we get stuck because we introduced a character too early in our novel; started the story in the wrong place entirely; or maybe because we’re writing in the wrong POV. We might not know our world well enough and need to do more brainstorming and research, or any number of other practical, concrete reasons. These are mostly things we can address and fix, sometimes with the help of others.

But quite often it’s a more emotional and psychological problem holding us back, and that all boils down to one thing:

FEAR

But, guess what? Writing is scary. Making yourself vulnerable on the page, letting others read your words and judge your dreams… putting yourself out there is just damn hard. And then the Fear Monkey sits on your shoulder and whispers in your ear, and that’s pretty much the end of that. At least for one day (and if you only lose a single day’s work to the Fear Monkey, believe me, you can consider yourself lucky).

Beware the Fear Monkey!

As cute as it is, you really don’t need that little monkey around. Most of the time, when I’m writing, I actally feel like that baby monkey, wanting my mum to give me a hug and tell me that everything is going to be okay. (What? Don’t mock my pain… ) But, even though she’s on the end of the phone and is very good with TLC-on-demand (that should be a new TV channel!), when we finally face our writing – our creative work – we’re on our own. Writing is a party of one. Um… unless we’re collaborating. Heh. We have to figure out the fear at the heart of our particular ‘stuck place,’ and then get to work on kicking its ass! And the best way to do that is to put your own ass in the chair and continue to write through the block, no matter how painful and no matter how much crap you end up throwing away later on.

That’s what I did, and I ended up throwing out a lot. A lot of hard work and hard-earned words. But I finally figured out what was at the root of my individual fear – on this occasion – and managed to put the Fear Monkey back in its box. For now.

I hope you can too…

P.S. One of the best books on the subject that I’ve ever read is, sadly, currently out of print: On Writer’s Block: A New Approach to Creativity by Victoria Nelson. I do recommend it if you can find a copy. Nelson spends a lot of time talking about how taking a break from writing is often a natural and normal thing, although of course professional deadlines do change our ability to put her wisdom into practice!

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